Saturday, January 16, 2010
i hope you will forgive me.. but i know i'm sorry..

Hello..


Just came back from work. Haish.. yesterday didn't went to court. They said me not need go due to work. Hmm.. my family thought we all dapat lepas but kite tak dapat lepas. Haish.. so go to do what court says. Haish.. so pity on my mum. She's someone value in my life. Without her, i don't know what to do. No matter what, i'm gonna be responsible for it. Hmm.. just wanna keep it between my family. Oh damn, i'm such a useless person to my family & mostly to "HER". I'm such a disgraced to my surroundings. Hmm.. i totally upset sad her. Why? Why i'm so mean? Why i'm always doubting about her? Why? Haish.. i know it shouldn't be in this way. I know deep inside her heart there's always her wanting someone who could gave her happiness. In deep of it, i know she just wanna be with that someone. But why i'm always make her sad. Izit totally my fault? Hmm.. how do i not say those thing if i don't find suspicious of her right? Haish.. Susah arh gini. My working hour all time was thinking of her. She totally did not msg or call me for the whole day? Haish.. buat perangai lagi. Ni lah manusia. Perangai selalu. Even me i guess but sorry i know my limits duhh~~..
Ohh.. on the other side of my mind, planned to open a simple band or group with Fizah Lullaby. Guess wanna do music for fun only. Nothing much. Hahas.. Erhmm.. so yeah trained then planned to go to auditioning once more but this time maybe not production. Hmm.. well.. shall see how things go. Hmm.. my house got to sell. Argh! where are we moving eh? Hmm..


Signing Off;
Ridzuan Jumali
3:01am

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Much❤ Ridzuan Jumali